I had two babies to care for and in a rocky relationship. I went to the local spiritual centre every chance I got and then it was held every Sunday afternoon. I would sit and listen, sing out loud to the songs, until one day our minister said-"What a strong voice, even from the back I can hear you Deb" Well, after that I sang much quieter as you would! :!: (Not now though, over the years I have allowed myself the pleasure of song, once again).

In those moments of my life I was one to stand back in the group (well, I thought I did) and watch the other people use their abilities in public. I went to a meditation group every week and in there I at times used MY ability. It was like hiding I guess, or in actual fact......learning to understand my self and love myself. As I used this gift I have in life time more and more I felt comfortable with these people. (all five of them). Our minister left and another came in. Marie was her name, and due to her being in our group,  she knew I had something.

So as I attended our Spiritual Centre, Marie would ask me if I would do platform. That is getting up in front of everyone and using my skills to read others. For many moments I would not get up, then one day out of the blue, Marie  nodded her head while looking at me indicating......to me the signal for me to get up if I wanted. And I did :!:  :!:  :!:  :!:

I was so nervous, felt sick, couldn't speak, until I realised that I knew these people! Not their personal life stuff but them as a group of people who have faith, believe in spirituality, aware of the gift that people have (some more than others) and they would NOT judge me.

So no matter what I was going to be supported, and I did what I do, I connected for some people and described their passed love ones to them in detail. Too long to tell you the whole experience, except I stood in front of these people often and more and more people came. So good to see others joining our sessions every second Sunday of the month in those moments. I was invited to step out a little further into the public, which I did. The feed back was and still is incrediable.  People kept asking me to come to their house's, their groups, to charities, I had to do a workshop to help me control the energies as they were out of hand......never turning off in away, but picking up too much, every where I went etc. So I was taught by a teacher who has this gift as well, how to turn it down! (not off).  (thank you Raymond).

To cut this into a shorter version, I did small shows for ten years, (10 - 100) people.

I knew I would be doing what I do now, I told my friends back then (ten years or so back) and they have watched and seen that my visions of even myself are coming true. I heard often, "don't get too big that we won't be able to see you still and have readings". "No way"  I would reply, even if I did get  as big as they said, I would not change. Meaning I would always be here for them. And, I hope that I am still, I think I am. (I have not changed, just got busy!!!!! under statement)

I am getting to what I really want to say and that is, after every show I would walk away hurting so bad, feeling so sick with guilt, I would beat myself up for hours, days, weeks at times, tears flowed after every show.

As I wanted to get to every person in the audience, having 20, 30, 40 how ever many people were there. I wanted to help EVERY ONE. And I could not. Time flew by, spirit would stop the channel, ( or did I due to getting tired) I did shows for four hours when I was younger in self. I worked and gave every bit of me, and I would read for every moment the show was on.

 Then one day, I walked out from behind the curtain and there was 300 or so people. And at the end I did not feel sick, guilty and in the pain as I had always walked away with. (always felt sad that I can not read all :!: , but it was different).  As I knew that I could not get to that many people in one session (show). It is humanly impossible.

 I did not plan this,  I was being shown through spirit that the larger shows are easier on me, to keep me going. I still want to get to everyone though! :!:

 Now, following that learning I did a show up in Bundaberg Qld and I only did readings as always but for two hours  ( my two hours can turn into three or four). But, what I learnt on that evening was as I walked out I heard the words "no-one understands any of what you do or anything about death and the sprirt realms" So, from then I knew the teachings are so very important-hence the question, answer moments in my shows. They are so very important, the teachings are what helps us all..........to learn, to understand. Wow, it is amazing and I want to teach as many people as I can....so I will teach many......bigger shows!!!!!!!! And in the shows this section involves everyone, not just the people receiving contact. I truly don't know how I do this, why I can do it in deeper detail than others. But, I do know that we All have a gift, be it play tennis, paint pictures, sing like angels, cook an amazing meal or clean house like no one else can. They are all gifts.

 We are in great change on Earth, people live in pain, People hurt others. I want to help and change US for the better, and it will take many to make this happen. To raise the vibrations so high that there will not be the dark, the pain, the hurt, the judgement, the lack of understanding concerning life and death. I love Spirit and I love people. I want our world to be IN LOVE!!!

I would like to think that this also will help with my next incarnation, to come back to a beautiful loving, green world!

 The readings are one part of the healing I can give, The teachings another, the help in such ways of Sensing Murder or Woman's Day articles as well.  I am so grateful for this that I have and I will spread myself out there if I am to do so. And, if The Divine needs me to be a messenger " I AM ".

 Lets change this world for the better.  HELP EACH OTHER.  :D

Life is school and I am also learning.....learning the greatest ways of helping.

LOVE OF ONENESS d x x x

My home and the forest is "yes" my hide away. Even if I was not doing what

I do this is just the sort of place that suits me. I grow up in the forest in

Victoria but did live in the city for a short moment in my early 20's. I get

tired just like anyone else and I always remember to take My moments,

Moments with my children and moments for work. I don't think I work that

 often, although I do work every day even if answering e mails, the phone,

 (many times a day) woman's day, my books (trying), it is amazing how much

 of my time does go into other people! People still ring at 1am or 3am when

they just need a chat. That is ok as long as it isn't every night! I think when

 I pass, Spirit will say "What were you doing down there? put your feet up,

 Life is about living, not working." Lucky I live my passion! lol

I used to work every evening holding groups for meditation and learnings,

 reading, but my daughter said to me a couple of years ago." what about us

 mum".

So, I changed my routine and only do private sessions in the mornings b/w

6am and 12pm. Afternoons in the office or crashed out on the floor. As

 anyone would know when one does give a lot, you get tired. Tired in body,

but tired in emotions! I hope that makes sense!

I look at my life some days and try to figure out how I did get so busy????

 
I took my first holiday two years ago in over 15 years, and I mean a

holiday....I did not do any readings and I felt amazingly light, healthy and

 alive. Now I know to do that at least once a year!!! If i can.

When I say work I mean work, but a lot is unpaid as well. That is just part

 of it.

My goal is to live for many more moments, watch my children grow and know

 that I have done my best. O, and paint!

When the children leave home I would love to travel with a pack back on

back and meet people, giving my moments where needed.

I have seven sponser children, which I will get on to my site at some stage!

And, would love more. Writting to them can keep me busy, but short letters

 are better than none.

I am rambling. So, I will leave now and again chat later. Blessings and love of

 ONENESS d x Got to get on with this day, or I will be late .... as always.

I pray to all that is on here to read, a beautiful moment and remember to

 live in the "NOW". Yesterday is a memory, today is the present and

tomorrow does not exist.